Well, it's been awhile, because I'd started to really get over constantly thinking about my weight, my food choices, the gym was starting to bore me and work had gotten so busy that all I wanted to do was sleep. I've still been weighing in every week and getting the shits with that as well, even though I knew deep down the only reason I wasn't seeing results was because of falling back into all my old habits.
A close friend of mine started working with me and we started going to the gym together after work, we did have one week where we successfully went 4 days in a row, but life just got busy and I kept finding excuses not to go and neither of us worked hard to talk the other out of it.
It all really went down hill when I had my car accident (I was already on the down hill slide but that just ended up pushing me even further downhill). After the whiplash I just found I couldn't find he energy to go to the gym or bootcamp (I really did genuinely have all that stuff on Tina, I promise!
But I probably could have rescheduled some of it if I really wanted to... I've just lost my mojo!).
I decided to do round 3 of the challenge, then I changed my mind, then changed it again, and so on. If they had of given me the opportunity to sign on earlier I would have paid it weeks ago and been locked into it, but they left it too late to let existing people sign up and I was back to not signing up and not wanting to spend more of my hard earned bonus when I needed to pay rego and get lot's of expensive stuff done to my car. But I've realised, challenges aren't for me, cause I psych myself out of them too much. I have learnt a lot of valuable lessons from Michelle Bridges, don't get me wrong, but I had been doing so much better when I was doing my own thing and not putting the pressure on myself, I hadn't had guilty moments before that because I simply wasn't that interested in bad food choices, but as soon as I was on the challenge, everything became forbidden and the self sabotage began.
That being said, my friend and I have started seeing a nutritionist through the clinic at the gym and am currently following the Ultra Lite program, which works to get your body into Ketosis which is the high fat burning phase. And it really works, in my first 3 days I lost 1.6kg! I have also found it so much easier to stya focussed when I have someone doing it along side of me that I see every day.
However I had Italian for dinner on Sunday night and that put my body out of ketosis, and then I caved and had the crackers at work. The first thing I learnt from this was I think I might have a wheat allergy, as I think I have finally found the cause of my unexplained itches every few days that only go away after an antihistamine, cause it hit me Sunday night and again yesterday, but I had not had a single problem before I'd caved and had wheat based products!
However the most important lesson is that I can't keep cheating, which has hit home more than anything on the challenge ever did, because I have someone closely monitoring me, and I have to pee on a strip every morning and night and depending on the colour I can see the effects that a meal has on my body straight away. So next time I go out to dinner, there will be only meat and salad, which they had at the restaurant, but I can't go to an Italian Restaurant without ordering pizza, it's my addiction, so Italian is out for awhile until I've reached my goal weight and have learnt to maintain my weight.
It has made me more accountable than ever, and I want to prove to myself that I can do this!
I'm looking to find a form of fitness that I enjoy, I really need to get back into Zumba so may have to start paying for classes somewhere seeing as my gym has it on at time when only unemployed people, stay at home mums and retirees can go! I'm considering looking into kickboxing as well, but think that will probably hurt my back and give my physio heart failure.
I haven't given up, I've just readjusted my vision!
